Today I am going to talk about ‘the subject’ – weight gain, being over weight, chubby, or whatever you want to call it. So two months ago, my friend Robi who lives in Geneva and hasn’t seen me for the last year or so, saw a photo of me on Instagram and sent a whatsapp message saying ‘Congrats Zena, I didn’t know, when are you due?’ Now I did not mention that the message was on a group whatsapp, this is a group of friends all ladies and we have all known each other for years. Now in that same photo was our other friend Kayemarie, who immediately replied ‘which Zena? the same one I am in the photo with? Smiley face, smiley face.
As you can imagine Robi felt really bad, because as mother of two children herself she understands the struggles of weight gain and weight loss and she has shared her struggles with me on numerous occasions. Now I know most people would feel bad for me and most will feel like how rude and insensitive of Robi. But I actually took it as a positive note; to actually look into my current lifestyle and ask myself ‘why and how I have put on so much weight?’ and to seriously start thinking about making positive life changes. I am not angry at Robi, I actually thanked her, because I needed someone to say something for me to wake up.
So I came up with 10 reasons as to why I’ve put on so much weight in the last year;
- I’ve let go of myself
- I lost self discipline when it comes to food
- Not caring of what I am eating or when I’m eating
- No exercising at all
- Comparing myself to others and telling myself that I am not that big after all
- Procrastinating; I will start eating healthy and working out tomorrow
- Not being bothered
- Making up all sort of excuses like, I am too busy, I don’t have time, I work full time, I am tired, Gym is too expensive; excuse after excuse, after excuse
- Loss of motivation
I need to loose about 10kg to get back to a healthy weight. I am currently 79kg and my target is to get to 69kg. This is a realist weigh loss target for me, and I know it is not going to be easy but I am at a point where I need to do this, because that number ‘79’ is constantly on my mind.
So how do I do I loose 10kg?
I have picked a weight loss program called ‘Banting’, which is a is a low-carbohydrate, high-fat diet, named after William Banting, the first person to do it. It’s recently been made popular by Professor Tim Noakes in his book The Real Meal Revolution. The idea is that this way of eating makes your body switch from burning carbs for energy to burning fat. I am also looking for a fitness trainer that will put my body and mind into shape and gain my discipline gain.
Having said all that, I need to say that weigh gain and weight loos is a very personal journey that one goes through. Some of you will look at these photos and say that I look fine and that I don’t need to loose any weight, as most people keep telling me. But it is not about what they think as much as they mean well. It’s really about how I feel about myself, and my appearance and my self-esteem. We are all different and beauty comes in all shape and sizes, and for those of you who know me well, know that I appreciate diversity. However the most important thing is that you are happy with how you feel and how you look. If we are happy they way you then GREAT! There’s nothing better than feeling comfortable in your own skin; but if you are like me and not happy with the weigh then it is also OK! to change that. Most importantly do what you want, and do what you feel is best for you.
Weight loss has always been a challenge for me and I thought the only way can do it, is if I put up on the blog, because now I feel accountable to you all and I have no choice but to throw out the excuses, put on my motivation gear on and take control of my life. Who is with me?